i have that sick feeling in my stomach, and the shakes..

i had a dream about you, we were happy, and laughing.. like we always do.

ahh, i can’t stop crying. it’s at everything, things that remind me of you, us.. this is a lesson, a big one. i’m learning.. that i can’t let fear get in the way of what makes me most happy. what the hell was i thinking..

i want us both to have time.. especially you. i just hope.. you’ll come back to me. i miss MY carly, now.

you told me you couldn’t live without me.. well, i have realized.. i can’t live without you, i can’t. i want to work at this everyday, because i want you. i love you.. i’m going to fight for you, even if you say you don’t want me to. and maybe.. i’ll get a little back. it takes two, and relationships are hard work, i am sorry i shut down and let the fear take me over. i am working on that.. please don’t let me go.. aslkhsfkd