February 2010
104 posts
going to hang out with emma, then pick up meg from tualitin, picking out valentine gifts for becky at lloyd, then home. yay(: OH, and going to goodwill to get a bike! haha.
i have a big day ahead of me tomorrow, i’m excited to get shit done.
i need to put things in perspective, and find myself. its starting, now. i am going to do what is best for me, and focus on what i need to do. i’m not going to let this bring me down, like it has. today will be a good day, everyday will be a good day. i’m going to start living in the moment, not in fear.
i have that sick feeling in my stomach, and the shakes..
i had a dream about you, we were happy, and laughing.. like we always do.
ahh, i can’t stop crying. it’s at everything, things that remind me of you, us.. this is a lesson, a big one. i’m learning.. that i can’t let fear get in the way of what makes me most happy. what the hell was i thinking..
i want us both to...
been on the phone with emma for over an hour. she’s been telling me stories about you, and us, and how the way you talk about me. “she needs to figure out what she wants, she never knows what she wants”
wow.. ugh.
goodnight.
i love you, car..
had an.. eventful day! stayed at heidi’s for a while, cat, steph, adam, nate, and everyone were there. had a talk with cat. i had a lot of fun(: it was nice. tomorrow will be an even better day(:
hanging out with emma tomorrow!(:
First Day of My Life // Bright Eyes
i don’t have the answers for you, at this time. i’m still asking myself the same questions. what is good enough, anyway?
you have always said, you have high expectations.
sometimes, i feel like i don’t know how to be in a relationship. i don’t want to scare you, and i know i am. i guess, things are just now hitting me, a lot of things. about the past, present, and future....
scattered mind
i don’t know what is really going on with me, i guess, i have been thinking too much and over analyzing things. i have never.. been quite like this before., felt like this. it’s a new emotion and feeling, but then again, it’s not at all. i have felt something like this, but not as strong. i am fearful, but.. of what? a lot of things i suppose. all this talk about the future, i...
i want to go somewhere peaceful to write, and paint. somewhere..
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i want to move to germany, right now. i have always wanted to.. their way of life.. is so much better than the united states.
i want to go on an amazing adventure for spring break! somewhere i have never been, somewhere beautiful and peaceful. ah, i will find somewhere.
hmm, mood change!
whoa, just caught myself being really possessive, in my head.
i am so in love with you. there is no way in hell i could ever be unhappy with you.
us:
Privacy and self-preservation play a significant role in your life. You aren’t inclined to casually blurt out feelings or opinions when in the company of groups, new friends, or professional settings. However intense and passionate your feelings, you keep your thoughts to yourself-revealing little of your internal life until you fully trust the people around you. Capricorns display...
i’ve decided that i am going to grow old with you, i don’t think i can grasp any concept of being without you, nor do i want to.